They say the Uncertainties of Existence never has answers, it's a role we as humans play everyday. It's reinventing ourselves, like clay moulding itself to a form. Life shows us it's strength and weakness, and you are an opponent doing like wise. We prepare ourselves for the best, the worst, the uknown future, the forgotten past and the moment. They say our experiences shape us into who we are today. But they also say our brains are the most amazing healers or killers. Our experiences haunt and tease us so mischievously, sometimes it could feel like a silly game of charade without realizing behind the facade there is no face. It is disturbing to us mortals, either way. I stopped planning and preparing, I started Living. I went through a spiritual growth within and found numerous paths that could lead you to the most amazing Life, the Emergence was not in factual, was like an invisible road leading me and all I had to do was to put my Faith in every step I took. Some of us live in constant fear of the consequences, and some have
diligently worked out options, were there to be a situation. I would
presume that many presume that this option does not exist in most. But
it does. And it does in numbers and the thinkings of those that value
outcome. I was faced with a situation recently that threw me of my perspective for a bit, it was like revisiting a house or a road that has been abandoned by many, and in the midst of all that, I felt the invisible path opening up to me again, but before all that happened, my automatic response to the whole situation was Defense Mechanism. In my mind Defense Mechanism is a close related cousin to the past experience and they both are going to be the cousins of the newly born moment. I believe in closing the books of past and not signing the lease with the future and emerging with the moment, but Belief in perception is a boon and a curse. The race between reality and
its perception, is one that has pervaded our ethos. Wise are they that
can project convincingly, reality, before perception overtakes it. After my Emergence with these spiritual paths, I was tested for the first time, and I guess I did fail for a couple of hours, engulfed in my cyclonic thoughts and emotions. What with a life that bears such intense scrutiny of the smallest decision, it has made me come to truly understand that we put our life into every act that we do, however seemingly small or inconsequential. Perception shall always require greater care and address It has the
capacity to be of lasting impact. Any impact that lasts, is reverential
in its construct. My reaction to my situation was infact not real, my perception took a form of reality and presented it to me. It may not be what it is meant to be. But then
meanings in such situations possess alternate meanings as well. And the alternate meaning would be the joy of just being in the moment with a person, or the situation itself but to my dismay I threw myself off the balance beam and fell knock hard, even though again in my perspective I could be hundred percent right but wisdom forbids excuses and depends on what you as a person relay. Sometimes when we are faced with a situation, we don't know what to believe, how to react, how long before we have the right to react, these are questions that have answers hidden within us, but then as mortals we re-question the question that need answers, then the answers need convincing ability, then the convinced
ability is another rarity. In today’s most cynical atmosphere, it has a
short life. My most awaiting moment turned into a moment that got cut short, even though I mended it, it was still a moment cut short. For at what singular point in one’s life would it ever be good and right
to determine conclusively? It is our perpetual determination and
perpetual self-determining that exist at one and the same moment, and
neither can be fixed: they must be tirelessly recreated, you have to keep Emerging from one path to another to keep that creativitiy going, otherwise we are going to be nothing but bunch of atoms moving about purposeless. Our canvases are so full of what we need to get and what we did not
get, both in our gains and losses. To imagine a state where desiring
more does not exist would be silly, as even wanting less is a desire.
But, to see what we get as what we are given is a perspective
that takes effort and discipline turn our attention to. And I strongly believe the more we keep looking for answers, the more we evolve within. Nothing in Life is achieved without struggle, not in the world alone but the struggle of emerging within yourself, re-inventing yourself and constantly searching for answers. The unsounding call to a higher purpose of love, passion, connection, growth. In consequence, I have come to see criticism, both from myself as much as from others, as a commensurate blessing. It has provoked me to constantly re-assess all that I ‘do, say and believe’. To question. To inquire further. And has always lead me to the answers, that I need. I have never felt the need to listen to the sounds of others to guide me, because I have found my voice within and my soul and my body have emerged as one being and still there is learning that must be constantly re-discovered. That is the point. There is the destination. This is my persistent faring. It's a pity that we can’t often see beyond what we want to get.
